Good Morning Peeps
This mornings Nashville Sky has a full Moon shining bright with a star directly to the right and centered in the middle as there are dark mixed with soft white clouds in spots.... but from a distance I could see a glimpse of a sunrise filling the skyline. Meanwhile the temp is quite comfortable with a decent wind blowing. I was standing outside listening to the howling wind blow and it was almost as if it had a voice of it's own. Today is definitely going to be an interesting day is what I keep thinking.
While sitting here drinking my morning Hazelnut coffee..... which tasting so good by the way....I started thinking about time and life...... Dreams and achievements....hit or misses..... and how each one have something in common. Each one is a big part of my life story and filled with many Adventures.
I remember several years back sitting in my old apt with a tiny cheap desk that I placed in front of the sliding glass door that over looked the pond where I lived. In that very moment I would physically be writing my Good Morning Papers in a spiral notebook. Writing about my dreams, things I would like to achieve, my insecurities of why I was scared to try and then turning around countering that fear with shear determiniation to find a positive to encourage myself to try to step out of my safety box that protected me.
The funny thing is that I wanted to try as I have wanted to my whole life, but sometimes the scars of the past have a weight that is so heavy that it could keep a leaf from blowing in the wind.
Still...everyday I wrote it out and took into action little challenges at a time that helped me to take baby steps towards something bigger than myself. Mostly a lot of it was me going on a spiritual walk and finding God and then hoping one day to find myself....hoping to discover who I really am inside.
As the days and years went on each step became bigger and one by one each dream I wrote about slowly began to happen. Next thing I knew...I was running with more confidence than I ever knew I had.....or maybe I did have it the whole time.....but was just to afraid of falling.
Time has a way of changing things in life and in time life has a way of changing things in us. Either way "It's A Matter Of Time" ....A Matter Of Hope, and a Matter Of Love, It's A Matter Of Who We Want To Be. I for one am grateful for time and changes. Especially when the fear is lifted and the leaf that was weighed down by fear is now free to blow in the wind.
Have an awesome Wednesday and I will catch you on the flipside!
~Tonya Noga