Good Morning Peeps!
Today starts a new day as the Sunset rises shining all it's warm colors to kick start the day.I have a perfect view right from my chair as I look out my window.Today here in Nashville we are supposed to have a warm 70 degree day. In fact all week is supposed to be like this! Do I dare to say that Spring is right around the corner. Well, I feel the fever and it feels great.
This morning I woke up bright an early and was walking through the doors of Planet Fitness at 4:10am. This time I made it a 50 minute workout. Then I came home and was really excited about my newest commitment to myself. Yesterday I received my hard book copy of The Artist's Way....which has two other books included that I have never read. Now to commit to this book will require me to work all the steps included for 12 weeks. Beginning with writing my Morning Papers. This is where I write unfiltered anything that comes to mind on 3 pages daily. I did this for long time in the past. I stopped because I decided to merge my music and morning thoughts in a daily blog to share with others. I have pretty much done this for the past 5 years. Only for about a little over year here on my website. Which has been great, because I still practiced finding my positive Silver linings in the midst of daily activities and i was able to share my music happenings as well.
Now writing my Morning Papers again will help me to dig a little deeper than I normaly would here in my blog. You see, since June when I had my surgery, so much has happened in between then and now, and I somehow lost myself and all the things that seem to inspire my creative senses and motivate me. My well is dry and just can't seem to figure out why. First there was my surgery that was major and took a lot of time to heal...well I am still healing from in different ways, the loss of a few friends and playing at the funeral for one of them, losing my Mia and Stretch, financial challenges because of medical, and then competing in a contest that sucked everything creative out of me and found out no matter how many times I changed my best song to try and please the judges really effected my confidence. Though I love performing and writing, this was a cold blow to my confidence level. since then I have been trying to reclaim my creative self. then i have all the mental and physical changes happening with my body that has caused weight gain. So...even though it's been a slow process going to the gym with settle changes, it is taking awhile to get to where I want to be. So...I decided to step back and go to the drawing board and figure out what it is that is effecting me. Starting with step one...commiting myself to the Journey. Last night I signed a contract to myself to do just that!
I still find my Silver Linings and the reason for living my Life and believe in the little things that mean the most. This time I am finding myself in a different stage of self awareness and maybe it's Life trying to tell me to step it up to the next level...maybe there is still fear that holds me back...who knows. suppose oi will find out in time. I am actually thrilled to be taking on this challenge and look forward to each discovery of a peice of me that is waiting to be awoken.
Meanwhile in the process of me finishing my last cup of coffee for the morning, i will leave you with this...Even though I am on a mission, I look foreward to sharing my experiences as I go through the steps with Peeps. After all, what better way to find healing than to share with someone else, who knows, maybe I might help to inspire someone who may be going through the same thing.
Peeps have an awesome Monday and remember, that the steps we take to help make a tomorrow are the steps we decide to take today!
Until next time, I will catch you on the flipside.
Tonya Noga